I’ve always like quiet people…

I’ve always liked quiet people: You never know if they’re dancing in a daydream or if they’re carrying the weight of the world.

            -John Green, Looking For Alaska


Keep the ones…

Keep the ones that heard you when you never said a word.


sea grief



Grief is like the sea,

it gets so mad that it

wants to swallow you.

The foam is like your

salty  bitter tears and the

the waves grab you never

letting go. But most of

the time the sea makes you

sick like the pain you have


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shines every morning

making the water sparkle

brightening my window



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blue birds flying by

in the beautiful light sky

like planes passing high



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A Perfect Place

Perfect Place

There’s a perfect place I want to be,

where love is amazing and I feel so free.

You can see the smile upon my face

every time I’m in this place.

In this place love is so strong

that nothing can go wrong.

I can be myself and nothing more

because his affection is so pure.

This place…a special place

where his love bursts out

without any doubt.

This place I call my home,

I will always own.

In this place I will be…

In his heart is the place to be free.


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why him

Why Him?

Why is it that my world turns upside down when he talks to me. Why does everything goes wrong with just a couple of words. I become scared…I become scared of the world and people around me. Yet this feeling of loving him I cannot explain. Making a fool of myself is the last thing I want to do but he makes it possible.

Butterflies in the pit of my stomach driving me insane… No, I’m just scared! Scared is what I feel. There are no butterflies.  I can’t breathe. I’m drowning in this dark hole between love and hate for him. I can’t stop thinking about him. I can’t stop loving him. I can’t stop missing him.


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Maybe One Day

Maybe one day if it’s possible

You will love me the same way

I’ve been loving you.


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Alone In Darkness

The night falls with a silent sight,

Soulless are we. The light for

Which you pray flares once, then dies,

Swallowed by madness.  All hope

Must die.

Your love is no more. How could you

Cause such hurt? Our dark emotions

Surround us crying, we have lost

Our light.


© J.C.

Dark Pain

 Around, all around, the dark memories gather.

My dread grows as the dagger of your words

Falls against my heart.

It wounds me and darkly my

Blood drips

To the fallen  despairing leaves.

In agony I call your name

While nothingness surrounds me.

Now alone, my love falls upon uncaring eyes.

This is because of you.

© J.C.