why him

Why Him?

Why is it that my world turns upside down when he talks to me. Why does everything goes wrong with just a couple of words. I become scared…I become scared of the world and people around me. Yet this feeling of loving him I cannot explain. Making a fool of myself is the last thing I want to do but he makes it possible.

Butterflies in the pit of my stomach driving me insane… No, I’m just scared! Scared is what I feel. There are no butterflies.  I can’t breathe. I’m drowning in this dark hole between love and hate for him. I can’t stop thinking about him. I can’t stop loving him. I can’t stop missing him.

 

© J.C 💘

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Maybe One Day

Maybe one day if it’s possible

You will love me the same way

I’ve been loving you.

 

© J.C.

Alone In Darkness

The night falls with a silent sight,

Soulless are we. The light for

Which you pray flares once, then dies,

Swallowed by madness.  All hope

Must die.

Your love is no more. How could you

Cause such hurt? Our dark emotions

Surround us crying, we have lost

Our light.

 

© J.C.

Dark Pain

 Around, all around, the dark memories gather.

My dread grows as the dagger of your words

Falls against my heart.

It wounds me and darkly my

Blood drips

To the fallen  despairing leaves.

In agony I call your name

While nothingness surrounds me.

Now alone, my love falls upon uncaring eyes.

This is because of you.

© J.C.