Why is it that my world turns upside down when he talks to me. Why does everything goes wrong with just a couple of words. I become scared…I become scared of the world and people around me. Yet this feeling of loving him I cannot explain. Making a fool of myself is the last thing I want to do but he makes it possible.

Butterflies in the pit of my stomach driving me insane… No, I’m just scared! Scared is what I feel. There are no butterflies.  I can’t breathe. I’m drowning in this dark hole between love and hate for him. I can’t stop thinking about him. I can’t stop loving him. I can’t stop missing him.

© J.C 💘